Done being confused

For the past month or so I’ve been a complete asshole to James, and when I say asshole I had not been coming home at night, telling him off for no reason, and acting very distant. I’m done now. My little phase of being mean to my babe is over! I can’t believe he even wants to still be with me, I admitted some whoreish things I did at the beginning of our relationship and all he says is he wants to know that I will stay committed. Of course he’s upset and keeps bringing it up, but I can’t blame him I would do the exact same thing. I don’t know exactly why I had been acting like the way I did but I guess it’s a mix of a lot of different things. James has done bad things to me, and we’ve been through some rough times and I was holding a lot of that against him; like I wanted pay back or something. I was also fed up with him working so many hours and never getting to see him, but I got to realize that we do get sometime together and at least he works. I also developed a crush on a bouncer at my work but I’m definitely done with that. The guy has some serious issues… For example, he was crying over me at a night club one night. He’s just too immature and I would never date a guy from my work anyway. He also resembles Fat Joe, who, does not make me wet my panties.

I can’t believe I let people make me feel bad thoughts about James anyway. Sure, I will admit he has slapped me before, but it happened awhile ago and everyone deserves a second chance. Hell, I punched him in the nose and made it bleed. Does that not count just because I’m a women? I believe it does! Our relationship was really rocky before, but he’s changed his ways and is very nice to me. Plus, he’s done more for me than any other person probably has. As long as I’m good to him I think we will work out for the long run. I just need to stop listening to other people…

We had a fun day together yesterday. We went to Celebration Station and drove Go-Karts and played Miniature Golf. The Go-Karts are fun but I wish they went faster, and it would be cool if they let you ram into people. I have no clue who won at golf because I was too preoccupied taking pictures of flowers and bugs, you can see some of the photos on my Flickr. Later on we went to James’s coworkers resort condo on Maderia Beach. We went in the hot tub and I swam in the pool for literally five minutes because I believe the other couple in the pool were getting their love on. Just a little awkward for me. I would have taken pictures but it was dark outside.

When we came home last night one of our neighbors informed us that a dead body was found in one of the ponds at our apartment complex! Creepy. The papers say the twenty year old guy drowned, but the stoner man downstairs said he was stalking someone and was on drugs so I don’t know. Here’s the story.
Gosh, I love New Port Richey. It seems like people are getting killed all the time. I know crime happens everywhere, but it seems to happen a lot more in Florida.

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My patio flowers and random bickering.

I actually feel like blogging today. It seems like I’m never home anymore, and when I am I’m usually just bummin’ watching a movie or something. I’ve been slacking on doing laundry and there’s no damn food in the house, must go grocery shopping soon! I did accomplish one thing though; I planted some flowers and got more hanging flower baskets, so now my patio looks less white trash! It still looks pretty crappy due to the lover’s motorcycle parts all over the place, our mix matched neon chairs, and the rusty table. I’m in need of a patio set, but there’s more important things I need instead. (Like a trip to Michigan to see the fam…)

It’s my lovely patio that has a gorgeous view of a tree and the parking lot:

More photos after the cut…

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Not a total waste of day.

Today, the lover and I wasted three hours of our lives driving to Tampa to listen to some stupid sales pitch about available travel “For less.” They promised us one of numerous available gifts, including the possibility of a Lincoln Navigator or $39,000 cash, $2,500 cash, vacation to the Bahamas, or a 36″ flat screen television. We thought the television would be the consolation prize, but we ended up getting the vacation…go figure! You’re probably thinking “greedy hooker, what’s wrong with a free vacation?” Well, nothing really, except after everything is said and done it’s not really free. We’d both have to pay $150 dollars to go, which isn’t too bad but you can go on a cruise for around $400 dollars anyway. It just wasn’t worth listening to the obnoxious guy talk for an hour, and having the a-hole salesman question our relationship because James works a lot of hours. He even admitted he was being a smart ass! I think he was just acting like that because James and I are young…

Thankfully, the day wasn’t a total waste, because afterwards we went to the mall! James bought me some stuff from Wet Seal. Heck yes, I got me some new clothes and shoes. What I got:

And…here I am trying it on:

So, uh… I guess the hand on the hip and the other arm down is my signature pose. Haha. At first I didn’t even notice I was doing it in every picture!

I don’t know how I feel about the leggings or the pink pumps, they’re so 80′s! I do love the heels though, I think I’d rather wear them with some skinny jeans instead. As for the leggings, I’ll probably just browse Polyvore for some ideas on what to wear them with. I love that website, it’s so useful to me; whether I’m just looking for outfit ideas, too lazy to use Paint Shop Pro, or wanna save an outfit for future reference, I highly recommend Polyvore.

Looking at the pictures I think I need to start doing something about my bod! I mean, I’ve never been thin, my boobs make me look bigger, and I look good enough to work where I work, but I dread hitting the age when everything starts to sag! (I’m typing this while I eat the sundae James made me.) Damn James! I think he wants me to get fat! I really don’t eat a lot, I just eat the wrong things. I would like to start swimming because it’s great exercise and I think it’s fun. It’s definitely warm enough for it now (it’s been in the 80′s) but I just hate going to the pool alone. There is never anyone to go with me!

I’m done rambling for now.

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