That on Thursday night I hung out with my ex-boyfriend Jason and his girlfriend Sarah? Let me mention that he wasn’t just a boyfriend I dated for a few months, I was with him for two years. He’s the one I moved to Florida with, he’s the reason I’m even in this stupid state! He was a horrible boyfriend; he never spent anytime with me, always picked his friends over me, cheated on me more than once, and he slept with my friend. And, now we hang out? Yep.
Sarah and him started coming up to my work a few months back, and when I first caught his eye I thought to myself “Oh, shiz….this isn’t what I need right now.” Instead of getting all mad I figured I’d be civil and ask him how things were going in his life…And to my surprise he wasn’t at all cocky, and Sarah was really friendly, and I could tell she wasn’t just being fake. So, they both started coming up to my work more and more, and I would sit and talk to them, we’d laugh, and oddly not feel uncomfortable at all.
For awhile she had been asking me if I wanted to hang out, but something always came up so it never happened until last Thursday. We all went and played miniature golf, and afterwards we went to some dive-redneck bar, and after that we went and hung out at my work.
Everyone thinks that they’re trying to get me to have a threesome. It wouldn’t surprise me if Jason wanted one because he’s a freak that way, but if Sarah agreed to something like that she’d have to be an idiot. I’m his ex for heaven’s sake! Let me also put out there that I would never have a threesome anyway, that just ain’t my bag. It’s weird though…Jason still looks at me in a certain way. I mean, I know him, and the way he looks at me it’s like he still has feelings for me, or wants me or something. I thought I still had feelings for him still at first, but then I faced reality… He did me so wrong when we were together that I could never feel anything for him again.
I think Sarah wants to hang out with me because she doesn’t trust him, and wants to know his dirt. The other night she was asking me tones of questions about girls he’s slept with and whatnot. She even said she doesn’t think he would not cheat on her. I dunno.
I just hang out with them because I have almost zero friends in Florida, mostly everyone I know are acquaintances. Having a girl friend to talk to is nice, even if she’s my ex-boyfriend’s girlfriend.
What do you think? Should I not hang out with them?
For the past month or so I’ve been a complete asshole to James, and when I say asshole I had not been coming home at night, telling him off for no reason, and acting very distant. I’m done now. My little phase of being mean to my babe is over! I can’t believe he even wants to still be with me, I admitted some whoreish things I did at the beginning of our relationship and all he says is he wants to know that I will stay committed. Of course he’s upset and keeps bringing it up, but I can’t blame him I would do the exact same thing. I don’t know exactly why I had been acting like the way I did but I guess it’s a mix of a lot of different things. James has done bad things to me, and we’ve been through some rough times and I was holding a lot of that against him; like I wanted pay back or something. I was also fed up with him working so many hours and never getting to see him, but I got to realize that we do get sometime together and at least he works. I also developed a crush on a bouncer at my work but I’m definitely done with that. The guy has some serious issues… For example, he was crying over me at a night club one night. He’s just too immature and I would never date a guy from my work anyway. He also resembles Fat Joe, who, does not make me wet my panties.
I can’t believe I let people make me feel bad thoughts about James anyway. Sure, I will admit he has slapped me before, but it happened awhile ago and everyone deserves a second chance. Hell, I punched him in the nose and made it bleed. Does that not count just because I’m a women? I believe it does! Our relationship was really rocky before, but he’s changed his ways and is very nice to me. Plus, he’s done more for me than any other person probably has. As long as I’m good to him I think we will work out for the long run. I just need to stop listening to other people…
We had a fun day together yesterday. We went to Celebration Station and drove Go-Karts and played Miniature Golf. The Go-Karts are fun but I wish they went faster, and it would be cool if they let you ram into people. I have no clue who won at golf because I was too preoccupied taking pictures of flowers and bugs, you can see some of the photos on my Flickr. Later on we went to James’s coworkers resort condo on Maderia Beach. We went in the hot tub and I swam in the pool for literally five minutes because I believe the other couple in the pool were getting their love on. Just a little awkward for me. I would have taken pictures but it was dark outside.
When we came home last night one of our neighbors informed us that a dead body was found in one of the ponds at our apartment complex! Creepy. The papers say the twenty year old guy drowned, but the stoner man downstairs said he was stalking someone and was on drugs so I don’t know. Here’s the story.
Gosh, I love New Port Richey. It seems like people are getting killed all the time. I know crime happens everywhere, but it seems to happen a lot more in Florida.
[edit] Well…work wasn’t as awful as I thought it would be last night. The place still sucks but I guess I’ll just have to deal with it. When I had mentioned to some girls about myself gaining weight they all said “yeah…probably in your boobs.” Funny, funny. As for the sex thing…James and I did it last night, well technically this morning at 5am. It was great, as it is always but I got dizzy this time from being so tired. I still wish I had friends down here, but at least I still have some up north. [/edit]
Life sucks right now. I mean…I guess it could be worse, I could be starving or something…and I’m not. I’ve just been really bored and lonely…
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I hardly ever see James, he works 60+ hours a week so he usually doesn’t come home until 8pm. Then he goes and works out with his friend for a couple hours, so by the time I’m able to spend time with him I’m ready for bed. I’m just really frustrated because he never wants to have sex! We got in a fight about it last night because I called him a name. I’m just sick of him acting like a prude, he was never like this before. He uses the excuse that he’s just really tired because he works a lot, well…he worked the same amount of time before! Maybe I’m just being selfish? I dunno… I’m not a nymphomaniac or anything, I just want to have sex with my boyfriend that I love. It’s really driving. me. crazy.
I’ve also been bummed because I have no cash flow. I’m used to making decent money and I haven’t been working so I’m broke. That’s hopefully going to change though because I’m going back to work tonight. I’m really nervous though…I look like I’ve gained 10 pounds and I don’t want the other girls judging me. I know that’s a stupid thing to worry about, but my work place is gossip central and the girls all love to talk shit. I just need to keep telling myself to hold my head up high and ignore it, I’m there to make money. If I get too stressed out I’m just going to say “f-it” and walk out of the place and never turn back. I’ve been depressed about things lately, and I don’t need that place making it worse.
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