Done being confused
For the past month or so I’ve been a complete asshole to James, and when I say asshole I had not been coming home at night, telling him off for no reason, and acting very distant. I’m done now. My little phase of being mean to my babe is over! I can’t believe he even wants to still be with me, I admitted some whoreish things I did at the beginning of our relationship and all he says is he wants to know that I will stay committed. Of course he’s upset and keeps bringing it up, but I can’t blame him I would do the exact same thing. I don’t know exactly why I had been acting like the way I did but I guess it’s a mix of a lot of different things. James has done bad things to me, and we’ve been through some rough times and I was holding a lot of that against him; like I wanted pay back or something. I was also fed up with him working so many hours and never getting to see him, but I got to realize that we do get sometime together and at least he works. I also developed a crush on a bouncer at my work but I’m definitely done with that. The guy has some serious issues… For example, he was crying over me at a night club one night. He’s just too immature and I would never date a guy from my work anyway. He also resembles Fat Joe, who, does not make me wet my panties.
I can’t believe I let people make me feel bad thoughts about James anyway. Sure, I will admit he has slapped me before, but it happened awhile ago and everyone deserves a second chance. Hell, I punched him in the nose and made it bleed. Does that not count just because I’m a women? I believe it does! Our relationship was really rocky before, but he’s changed his ways and is very nice to me. Plus, he’s done more for me than any other person probably has. As long as I’m good to him I think we will work out for the long run. I just need to stop listening to other people…
We had a fun day together yesterday. We went to Celebration Station and drove Go-Karts and played Miniature Golf. The Go-Karts are fun but I wish they went faster, and it would be cool if they let you ram into people. I have no clue who won at golf because I was too preoccupied taking pictures of flowers and bugs, you can see some of the photos on my Flickr. Later on we went to James’s coworkers resort condo on Maderia Beach. We went in the hot tub and I swam in the pool for literally five minutes because I believe the other couple in the pool were getting their love on. Just a little awkward for me. I would have taken pictures but it was dark outside.
When we came home last night one of our neighbors informed us that a dead body was found in one of the ponds at our apartment complex! Creepy. The papers say the twenty year old guy drowned, but the stoner man downstairs said he was stalking someone and was on drugs so I don’t know. Here’s the story.
Gosh, I love New Port Richey. It seems like people are getting killed all the time. I know crime happens everywhere, but it seems to happen a lot more in Florida.
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May 28th, 2008 at 8:54 pm
“I have no clue who won at golf because I was to preoccupied taking pictures of flowers and bugs” — LOL you’re so cute!!
As for your BF.. I’m glad you guys are getting along again! I go through phases exactly like yours with mine and I feel soo bad afterwards. I think we are just PMSing to the max.
May 28th, 2008 at 9:56 pm
I think second chances depend on what happened during the first chance. I gave my ex more chances then he deserved, but then again my ex was a selfish bastard who I let emotionally abuse me for like 5 years, not to mention use me so i do think it seems a bit different.
The important thing is that you guys are working on it, and moving past it. Good for you, i wish you the best of luck!
May 28th, 2008 at 10:06 pm
eee, someone drowning in your pond is quite creepy and very strange.
I hope your relationship works out for the best.
Dating or messing around with someone from your work is a bad idea because if it doesn’t work out (or if you regret it) you have to see them every day and be professional about it when all you want to do is tell them what a massive tool they are (or maybe this is just me)
May 28th, 2008 at 10:31 pm
I really know how you feel because I’ve been there, done that, and he’s been there and done that as well. Though we both had been really cruel to each other, if the love and want to be with each other is still there, you have the power to get past that. I’m glad that things are back on the road and heading forward. It’s hard to let go of the past, but if you two want to be successful, you both have to. Best of luck!
May 28th, 2008 at 10:51 pm
Glad to hear it! It’s always good when people try to make it work.
Someone in the apartment complex close to ours drowned someone in a hot tub a couple months ago.
May 29th, 2008 at 4:04 pm
Oh my god, that’s insane that someone drowned. And very sad! That would freak me out as well.
As for the relationship topic, I wish you two the best of luck working everything out. Relationships are so difficult sometimes and Keith and I went through a phase of being assholes to eachother as well. I’m glad you two had a fun time driving go karts and mini golfing. =]
May 29th, 2008 at 7:55 pm
I’m glad youre done being confused…it seems from your blog posts, you and your bf care about each other tremendously! Ah! Everyone has their problems, but its great you both are working through them now and in the end building an even stronger relationship. Ahh, love, so beautiful!
May 29th, 2008 at 8:56 pm
aww your post sounds so sweet =D lol
i’ve never heard of celebration station but it sounds cute.
well the friend that kick me out? is a friend i’m never gonna hang out with ever again.
May 29th, 2008 at 10:40 pm
aww, you should vote in the presidential election
it is much more exciting than other election years
May 29th, 2008 at 10:54 pm
I think you and James have a lot of fun ALL THE TIME!! And I think he is a good boyfriend. I know you’ve been ranting about his work hours, but you’re right, HE WORKS! And I believe it’s for the both of you two. I think he loves you and just wants to prove to you that he can be a good provider.
Yup, I think relationships are a two way street. Be good to James and he’ll be good to you. Of course, NOBODY wants anyone being mean to them. Give love and you’ll receive love. (WHOA… I’m starting to sound like a preacher. HAHAHA!)
But anyway, that is scary that a man drowned where you live! Is the pond THAT deep? ooOOOOoooOO!
May 30th, 2008 at 12:36 am
Relationships are hard. They’re not a peace of cake, I know that first hand. You have to work at it. It’s never perfect. You have to learn to forgive and forget. And that’s REALLY hard. But if you don’t, your relationship (and I’m not just referring to yours. I mean in general) it just gets worse.
Have a wonderful Friday!
June 5th, 2008 at 2:24 pm
Ultimately, you’re the one who knows what will make you happy. I don’t necessarily agree with the relationship that you have (because we all have different ideas and preferences, anyway) but who am I to judge (I’m not one to, anyway, cos I wouldn’t want anybody judging MY relationship). All that should really matter is love and fighting/working for it and what makes your heart happy ♥